Saturday School (kindergarten prep event)

Ok, this may not sound pretty, but it is truly how I feel. The good, the bad and the ugly.

So in preparation to take our 3 year old to practice for kindergarten, I realized she isn't going to know anyone and neither are we. It's a good and bad feeling.

We arrived promptly (10 minutes early), checked her in and went to the gym to have a seat.
That's where it all started. I am watching these other parents dressed to the nines (for me Saturday is my dress down day, the ONLY day of the week I can wear my jeans and hoody), they are conversing with others they know saying things like "I hope our kids get the same teacher", I am saying in my head you are so fake and BTW there are 6 yes 6 kindergarten classrooms give me a break, they are saying in a valley girl voice "it's so good to see you", "it's been a long time", gagging at the fake conversation and their need to appear to fit in, draw attention to themselves and be cool.

I really feeling bad for my eye rolls, my internal laughter, and what I may have to "deal" with. I don't do fake, I can talk to anyone, it isn't important for me to fit in but it is important to me for our child to feel comfortable. I don't want to have to say things like "I totally haven't seen you in awhile", "did your kid do this cuz my kid did" etc.

I hate the feeling that there is a good ole boys club, and I am excluded because I don't know the right people. It is so high school and youth group ALL over again. I hate having people tell me what a great girls night they had with a group of people I know, am I suppose to be happy for you? Ugh!

People wonder why I am a guarded person, well I can't stand fake, I am not going to pretend you are God's gift to earth, if you are my friend I am loyal, honest, forgiving, and truthful. I don't need to name drop, brown nose, or feel obligated to do something for you if in your life you can't bring yourself to say hi when you see me on a weekly basis until you need something from me.

I know I have an entire year and 5 months before she stars kindergarten, I just don't want to be fake, dress like I am 16, compare my child to others, and wonder if she is being excluded because I didn't kiss the right rear end.

My dad always says "it's not what you know , it's who you know". I just don't understand why people treat others as if they are some kind of god. I feel I see this once a week and that is bad enough. I don't want to add it to 6 days a week. I spend Saturdays with my family :)

I already feel this way at another place I take her, and other things i participate in, I don't want to add one more thing.

Although my perspective could be wrong, Saturday School was just 2 hours, just have this over all feeling.

Any advice or suggestions would be appreciated. :)